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Saturday, June 04, 2005
sorry that i have not blog for so long... didn't really feel like blogging... many things came and went... stuffs that i did not want to happen happened... things that i hope will come true did not... life kinda sucks for me at the moment... but no worry... i will pick myself up soon and get on with life...
yest was the last official rock climbing session for me since nxt week i will be missing due to the pulau tinggi trip... seriously speaking... i did enjoy myself there... it was quite fun trying to attempt some walls that i know i cannot climb... despite unable to reach the top... its still the process that counts... haha... ok... just trying to comfort myself... kekeke... surprisingly... i found out that most of us want to come back to climb... haha.... these few fridays had really been fun... sch ending early... hanging out at J8 or town... going for rock-climbing late... then 'tour' around singapore... journey for fri... sch ===> J8/Town ===> tanjong pajar ===> punggol ===> woodlands... how interesting right??? haha... i will miss these fridays... especially the conversations we all had...
campland came and went very quickly... its one of the very few times that i actually have a chance to be a leader... somehow or other... i still think i should be a follower and not a leader... it just suits me more... but anyhow... i did had great fun... esp during the campfire... we, rangers, went crazy and did a few stupid things... haha... but i enjoyed it... kekeke...
i'm tired to go on typing... shall end here... will further update when i feel like it...
if i ain't got you|11:30 PM

Sunday, May 15, 2005
bahhhhh... i don't know what to update at all... haha... 2 tests tmr... totally just sucks! not at all prepared for it... can't seem to understand what the hell chemical energetics is all about... and theres still the stupid s,p,d,f crap... man... think i'm gonna fail chem for the first time in my life... how great??? well... just praying that i can at least scrape through this test... i will be happy enough... haha... oh ya... there's still the maths test... trigo functions... how fun??? well... at least its getting better... used to just give up on these qns... but now at least i can solve some of them... haha...
i'm confused bout an issue... really don't know how to handle it... i guess i shall just let nature take its course... let god, or whoever out there can help me, to decide... hopefully it will be a happy ending to the issue... hopefully......
ohhhhhh.... i finally got a zen micro... was deciding between a MuVo and a Micro... finally decided on a Micro as it was more value for money... for $299... u get get either a 1GB MuVo or 4GB Micro... wouldn't it be stupid for anyone to take the MuVo... so yea... decided on the Micro... when i wanted to buy... the stupid salesperson then say... there's no cable for the 4GB one... thinking that since i already spent so much money... a little more won't really matter right??? haha... so i bought the 5GB one instead... how cool??? haha... now... i must start downloading songs... =D whee~~~~~
ok... guess i'm done here... don;t think thats any other thing to blog about...
i miss u dear... hao xiang ni...
if i ain't got you|9:57 PM

Wednesday, May 04, 2005
ok... i really regretted my decision to quit badminton... i was thinking of giving life science a chance... but i really can't stand it... sitting arnound in class for 1 hour doing nothing every wednesday don't seem very interesting to me... and that just sucks... haiz... ok... at least for now fri seems quite fun... dinner, rock-climbing with the life-sciences people in class, then tour around singapore... -.-! but nvm... i shall continue to perserve on... since nyaa gold is on the menu... haha... and the june trip seems really interesting... air-conditioned rooms... bbq... turtle-project... kayaking... guess thats the only up point in lss...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me'
Til then I walk alone
tests, tests and more tests... throw in project work... now that just totally sucks... finally scored better in my chem test... got 17/20 for this one... the previous was pretty crap... got 14/20 only... so merrill is still top... ying jun second... me and shiying third... for now... hope i can maintain somewhere in the top 3 after the 3rd chem test... energetics!!! i think i'm gonna die... sucks sucks sucks!!! haiz... and physics test is really just pure crap... i think i totally flunk it... i did a little... realise i'm gonna die... stop doing and went to sleep instead... so how nice??? half my paper is blank... haha...
Ryan Cabrera - True
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might thinkI don't look
But deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak
It's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You don't know
What you do
Every time you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
It's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try, anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try, anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
this song totally rocks!!! super nice... wahahahahahahaha
if i ain't got you|9:00 PM

Saturday, April 30, 2005
Your Rising Sign is Sagittarius
Happy and upbeat, you are always optimistic.
Even when you're in a bad mood, people find you friendly.
On the flip side, you're very restless and bored easily.
You've been known to pick fights just for the fun of it.
You've got a great sense of humor and a quirky outlook on life.
Aggressive, wild, and unconventional, no one knows what you're going to do next.
Would you take my hand would you run away with me,
to a destination where we can be so free.
Your #1 Match: ESFP
The Performer
You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.
A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.
You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.
You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.
You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.
Your #2 Match: ESTP
The Doer
You are adventurous and risk taking.
You act first, think second.
You love being the center of attention.
Chances are you were the class clown.
Competitive, charming, and charasmatic - you have your own code of honor.
You live a flexible life, bouncing between a series of activies that interest you.
You would make a great salesperson, marketing director, or entrepreneur.
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
alvin lee
broke his knee
so funny
married ashley
gave birth to happy-lee
who became a happy-nurse
LOL!!! still find this shit damn funny... hahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahaaahahahahaha
if i ain't got you|5:44 PM

Thursday, April 21, 2005
badminton... something that has been in my life for the past 10 or so years... yet just because of a moment fit of anger... i've just lost something that has been with me for the last 10 years... some may say its a stupid thing to do... wheras some may say that i should quit... at the start... when i just quit... i thought i made the right decision in quiting... firstly, i DON'T like the coach at all... he totally sucks... secondly, i needed more time on my hand to do my studies and stuff... being in badminton will practically take up every day of my life for training... thirdly, i reached my peak in sec 4 south zone... and since then my form has been dipping... so all along i thought that i was happy that i am finally free from badminton... but one day... just out of curiosity of what was happening back in SJI... i went back on a training day... bad decision... firstly, shiying force me to buy a SJI badge for her... >.< ok... out of point... haha... secondly, lets just say i found out that i still love badminton alot... i totally miss the feeling of playing in court... the tense feeling of competition... where everyone is behind you cheering you on... that feeling is just great... but its all gone now... gone just because i've quit badminton for life sciences society... but anyway... i've decided that i am going back to SJI to train once in a while... or rather just to play some badminton... haha anw...
ben rox!
sean rox!
shiying rox!
shirlene rox!
alloy rox!
weng rox!
kaiquan rox!
weeyang rox!
fabien rox!
alot more pple rox!
but...
most importantly...
grace DON'T rock! LOL
btw... ****** sucks... and thats an understatement... LOL
if i ain't got you|10:38 PM

Friday, April 08, 2005
ok... i just changed my blog template... yes yes... again... hahaz... but well... i was just so captivated by it not to use it... guess this is the first template that i've actually used from blogskin w/o changing anything at all... its just to nice too change... hahaz...
i miss 1t22... i miss many people... people like kaiquan, zhouyang, suiren, fabian, royston, edmund, etc... miss the times we had together in 1t22... operation WAOW, e-day, xin yi dai 5566, S.H.E, M2M, pon lecture, pon chinese, bball, vball, 5 day lan week, chem rep... really miss those times alot... i am sure i will never be able to find anyone capable of replacing u all... i'm sure of that...
but well... they say that life has to go on no matter what happens... so ok... might as well make the best out of it... i'm now in 1t28... where half the class is from 1t22... but those above mentioned are missing... either couldn't make it to cj, went other jcs, or took a 4 sub combi instead of a 3... stupid chiam... he lied to us about 3 subs and 4 subs able to stay in a class together...
anw... back to 1t28... hahaz... i am now made to sit at the front left hand corner of class... sitting beside me is our dear xiao hou... beside her is shirlene... behind xiao hou is sean... wee yang is behind shirlene... chiam put me here so that i wouldn't talk... hmmm... i believe he is either stupid or retarded... hahaz... with sean and wee yang so near me... i won't talk??? what a joke! LOL! well... maybe he tot putting me beside a girl might stop me from talking... but... the xiao hou... i tell u ar... she looks so quiet... but in actual fact... she can talk and talk non-stop once she starts talking about naruto... haha... btw... she says her bf is gaara... wahaha...
anw... shirlene pointed out to me and sean a prob that me and sean have long discussed... she says the class is very weird as we are not at all like other classes as we are all seperated into diff groups... the 1t22 guys, 1t22 girls, the rest of the girls... and some AS... ha ha... i kinda know that this would happen... thats why i had hoped that the whole of 1t22 could have stayed together... its was not easy bonding so well together... and to do it all over again seems very tiring to me... i guess to a few certain individuals too... but i guess this cannot go on... oh well... the class have gotta bond somehow... how we gonna do it i dunno... just guess see what sean is gonna come up wif again... haha...
k... off to my dinner now... finally updated in such a long time... hahaz... :p
if i ain't got you|7:00 PM

Friday, March 25, 2005
i seriously don't know how to start this entry.. lets just say this entry will be a recap of the first 3 months in a jc for me... was reading sean's entry just now... i was really touched by it... zhou yang's too... i never thought that this first 3 months would have such a huge impact on me... at first... i thought that 3 months would be too short a time for the class to bond together... well... apparently not... the last 2 days had been hell, if not worse, for me... i greatly miss my class... just take yest for example... i didn't know where to go before school... but somehow or other... my legs just took me to 1T22... to my surprise... i saw yvonne and sean there... after a while... more members of the class showed up... that just somehow made my day... was really glad to be with them again... i have so much to say... but i really don't know how to put them into words... esp my gratitude towards the class for making my first 3 months such a memorable time... even if we don't end up in the same class... i will never forget u all... i swear to that...
if i ain't got you|9:52 PM
